Its funny when you reach your first few teenage years and you feel like an adult. Thinking you know exactly what it is that you want and that you’re ready for a challenge. This guy, I remember him only whenever I’m reminded of him. ahah It was one of the most awkward confusing relationships ever. I was in the middle of my teen years and I remember meeting him that summer.
Gangster. Was what he thought of himself. Cute innocent boy, I thought. It was weird though. We “hooked” up through a known friend of mines and we started from there. It was within one week I had gotten in trouble with my parents about dating. My mom threw a fit and I didn’t want to deal with my mom yelling at me so I decided to just break it off with him. Plus I didn’t have much feelings for him. I think it was the whole idea of having a boy friend would be fun haah. So I broke up with him.
He cried. He said he loved me. I was young, but not SO stupid…I didn’t respond back. Only rolling my eyes and thinking, “This boy is on CRACk” but I felt bad too. Then he said the weirdest thing to me. He told me, “I know we’ll never be together in the end. I just want to be with you in the time being, and when it’s time for us to depart I hope we understand each other and be able to let go.” Wow ahah It was one of the most “KOREAN” drama things I’ve ever heard. I remember telling him, “In that case, it’s good if we’re not together…” I don’t know it was such an awkward conversation to have at that age. Anyways for some reason we came to a conclusion and continued to date. There was definitely no chemistry between us. none. We talked on the phone and hung out once in a while. I guess the chemistry was that we were both serving community service for being bad kids in high school. ahah Horrible…but true.
It was such a weird relationship though. It was J4 at Como that summer and I had met his “friends” or so I thought they were. He left me there for a few minutes to go talk to his uncle. Suddenly his friends just starting hittin’ on me. Like telling me how good looking I was. Man it was so awkward, so I left after the boyfriend. I felt bad though, they weren’t his real friends. Just a bunch of punkwannabe gangsters. Then that day got even more awkward… I had ran into a friend from school who was a boy, ahah so I hugged him and said hello. Then to my luck, I heard the boyfriend’s friends sayin, “Ohh shit dude, that guy just touched your girl. Beat him up!” Man I turned to my buddy and said, “GO, go!!” lol So weird. No one got beaten up, but still it was awkward. They were some ghetto ass boys. So young and too immature.
As time went by I believe it was probably just weeks, him and I were on and off. It would be through days though. It was a puppy love. But I can’t really even recall my feelings for him. Anyways I remembered the first time he tried to “make out” with me. I was such an innocent girl. But that was the worst thing I’ve ever tried. I had never “made out” with anyone before. Gross. But he tried and I tried. It felt disgusting. It was like a nasty slobbering worm in my mouth. So I pushed him away. ahaha Gosh, Don’t ever want to experience that again. It gave me the fear to “make out” ahah When I think back, makes me want to puke a little. BLAH! ahah
A few weeks after that, I remember it clearly. Our time was coming to an end. He Msn Messaged me..lol those are sooo old, anyways he messaged me saying that he doesn’t know where we are going anymore. “You’re taking me for granted” is what he said. It was the weirdest thing anyone has ever accused me of! lol I wasn’t taking him for granted, that’s just cold hearted. I guess we were too young to understand how to hold up a relationship. So he broke it off with me. And it was final. To be honest, I wasn’t upset or mad or any heartbroken feeling. I got over it within a few days and out of all the relationships I’ve ever been in, I always forget this one. Ahaah Amazing though, we were too young. <3